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No, seriously.  Guess what!

No, I’m not engaged.  No, I’m not getting married.  What did you say?  No chance I’d ever renounce my love of Star Trek and Julia Stiles.  Keep guessing!

OK, I’ll make it easy.  I’m doing some weekly blogging over at Everydayhealth.com (click to see my first of many missives).  I’ll be talking about how my stroke happened, what I’ ve been through and where I’m going.  Given my recent Sleep Apnea study and the additional fun of H. Pylori in my life I can promise there is a good chunk of material to be had over there.

What does that mean for here?  I’m not sure.  I’ve fallen off the Lose it or Die due to the whole stomach thing and some work related items.  I think I’ll continue that here while doing stroke centric posts at my blog over there.

I’m also kicking my fiction site into high gear with some new and old stories uploaded.  I’m also going to start writing more so be sure to check it out here.

More to come as soon as  my work weekend is over.

Woot.

If you’re looking for my regular posts, you’ll find me over at aarondelay.com/thefiction for the month of November for National Novel Writing Month.  So, move on over and check it out yo!

Do you know what it’s like to be a Christian?

It’s hard. It’s never easy. But it’s something. It’s beyond our simple humanity. It’s reaching out to your creator and saying, “Ohk, you win.”, and allowing yourself to live with the fact there is no way in heaven or hell you can do it alone.

Which is something we as Christian’s are constantly learning. Every day is a new lesson in how to not screw it all up. And every day is a lesson in what forgiveness is and finding what it means to you…and how God fits into that whole picture.

Such is the daily struggle of each of us. And so I said I’d do this everyday. Obviously I wasn’t motivated enough. Something was missing. I haven’t done a lot of reading lately. I haven’t had much social contact either. I moved out of a apartment with someone I had a hard time relating to which lead to my feelings towards him being amplified to damn near Defcon 1. Throughout those six months I folded inwards. I haven’t really realized just what God is there for and why I exist.

To say I’ve been marinating on this blog and my position with God for the last few weeks is an understatement. I question God every day. Sometimes hourly. Why is the biggest question. How is coming in a close second. In the end I keep coming back to, “Because.” God is just that. To follow him you must accept that answer. Faith is what we have to lean on. Is it blind faith? I wouldn’t say that. I would say it’s fearful faith. We can be afraid that God will drop us like a bad habit.

It is in those moments I remember (and I quote this often) the way they describe Aslan in the Narnia Chronicles.

“Safe? Who said anything about safe? ’Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good. He’s the king, I tell you.”

God’s always waiting for us to return to him after wandering away.  He’s just a hop skip and a jump away.  He’ll come halfway if you’re willing to stretch across the divide you’ve created.

So.  How do I make sure I do this everyday?  I have a plan.  It involves a mentor and a few friends to keep me honest.  With their and God’s help, this is possible.

Until tomorrow.

Hey all.  Strokes still suck.  Don’t expect that to change.  A few changes and site news things to read.

First, I’ve decided to change my Vlog name from “a deLayed reaction” to “a stroke of deLay”.  Reasons behind this include me having a stroke and figuring I’ll be talking about the stroke in most if not all my upcoming vlogs etc etc.  You’ll see the new intro (if I get it done) and all the new things in next weeks vlog.

Second, I’ve thrown a big old banner up the top.  I’ve discovered that IE hates it.  But it appears that IE is the only browser (Firefox and Safari play nice) that seems to hate it. So, I blame Microsft (and Canada for good measure) and will have to figure out how to fix the problem later when I’m motivated and not dead tired.

And third…probably more changes coming as well.  I know I said I wasn’t going to blog here anymore…and well the stroke kinda changed that.  So, please continue to be patient as I find my way through this life post stroke.  Thanks!

Just a bit o’ site news since I figure it’s part o’ the rules of bloggin’.  Also, not sure why I’m doin’ the whole apostrophe thing as I’m typin’.  Alas, onto the details.

You’ll notice the whole blog has a new look.  I like to tinker and this is the next phase of my blog.  This is kind of nice because there’s actually drop down menus up there.  So it makes things a little smootha’.  If you’re looking for this theme for your Wordpress blog, here’s the link.  Also, there’s plenty of cool themes there also that might wet your whistle.

In other exciting site news that’ll shake your soul, The Ride online radio program is now here listed under “Online Radio”.  There’s a bunch of subpages I’m working on filling as time goes on.  I’ve decided to focus more on the radio show and make it a partner/feature here so there will be a nice cycle of material going on.  We’ll see how that works out.

A new logo is up there as well that gives the blog a more personal connection since all the stuff written here is bore from the loony mind of me myself and I.

Thus ends the site news.

Hey, did you know I’m back doing my online radio show? Oh you didn’t? I must share! The latest show is below and the link to blogtalk is here. Woot!

When you have to decide between your cable/internet bill and your rent bill and the roof over your head wins out, the cable company tends to get a little offended.  I’ll be in an out this week as I find free wifi in my area.